Pregnancy Insecurities

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I’ve been debating posting this or not, but in the end I decided that I would share a little on how the pregnancy has been affecting me lately. There are things I’ve expected with being pregnant like having food cravings, being a little cranky and tearing up during a sad part of a movie. I’ve been fortunate that I haven’t had severe mood swings or been overwhelmed with crying spells. I was prepared for many changes, but with this pregnancy I have become very insecure and fragile, which no one warned me about.

I never used to care what others thought of how I looked, but now I find myself obsessing over my appearance and worrying about what others think. This is a huge change for me; I’ve never been so sensitive.

Now in my third trimester I’ve started to obsess over my weight and how I look. I’ve always been thin and fit, so I'm really struggling with the changes my body is going through with my ever growing baby. I am enjoying the pregnancy and agree with others that I have a cute little baby bump, but sometimes I feel like my new body shape is very unattractive. For the most part I don’t even want my boyfriend Chris to look at me because I’m so insecure about how much my body has changed. I am 36 weeks along (nine months) and have gained around 25 pounds. This is considered a healthy amount for where I am in this pregnancy, but seeing it in the mirror has been very difficult for me.  (If anyone has seen The Grinch.. that’s kind of how I think I look when I see myself.)

On top of the physical changes, I am noticing that I’ve become extremely insecure about others opinions, particularly when it comes to baby names. Daily I am asked what baby names we're considering for our tiny human. My answer is always “we haven’t really decided or talked about it yet”. The truth is I am too afraid to say what names I like in case someone doesn’t like it. It shouldn’t matter whether or not someone likes or dislikes what we name the baby, but to me it’s a huge deal.

I’m sure many other mom’s have dealt with similar insecurities, but for me it has been a big change being so vulnerable and insecure about my body and my actions. Luckily, Chris has been and continues to be very encouraging and supportive. I am enjoying and embracing all the ups and downs of this pregnancy. I couldn’t ask for anyone better to experience this with.

Now to leave on a more positive note: I am very happy being pregnant and love feeling our little baby moving around, kicking and growing. I constantly find myself sitting beside the crib going through the baby clothes we’ve collected. I can’t wait; only four more weeks until we meet our little one!

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Are there any other moms out there who are experiencing or who have experienced insecurities or problems they weren’t prepared for?